My Poetry
Last Updated..9/24/03
This is a sampling of my poetry, I will be adding more poems as I get the chance. Click on the link below to jump to a certian poem.
They
Sinking
Long Lost Love
Fall
Another Day
Walls
Sirens and City Streets
Monster in the City
Ruined Dellusions
Little Girl
A Warning
It All Comes Crashing Down
Flower Child
By Your Bed
Taking Leave
Flowers
Bad Karma
A Sad Day
Grandma
A Wonderful Experiment
Two Loves
Twilight in the Northwoods
March Morning
They
In a bright sea of bluish flowers
Two young lovers hesitate to fall
Under bowl of deep blue sky
They dance without touching
In the lush green alpine fields
They frolic without a care
Between the good old oaks
They are the ones that are free
They are the ones that are free
The ones in which the future is held
They are the one unburdened by care
The ones that will save us
They are the ones who touch
By not touching a thing
They are the one who refused to fall
And will keep us pure
Back to list Sinking
I’ve thrown up the danger flag
And I’ve sent the SOS
We’re bailing out the water
But not making any progress
This ship is going down
And there’s nothing I can do
The ship is going down
Jump in the boat so I can save you
We didn’t hit an iceberg
And I didn’t pull the plug
There’s nothing that didn’t happen
It wasn’t the wood-eating bug
But this ship is going down
And there’s nothing I can do
The ship is going down
Jump in the boat so I can save you
Like the good captain
I will stay here until the end
And watch as the ship sinks
It’s not me they will commend
As this ship is going down
And there’s nothing I can do
The ship is going down
Jump in the boat so I can save you
I wish I would have heeded
The signs that were there before
But I didn’t want to deal with it
I couldn’t handle anymore
So now my ship goes down
And there’s something I could have done
The ship is going down
But I didn’t want to ruin your fun
Back to list Long Lost Love
I peer into your eyes
And imagine my surprise
When lo and behold
I glimpse the depths of your soul
And as your gaze I hold
I manage to see the
Answers unfold
There just for me to read
And tell me what happened
On that night and on that day
And to give me a look at the price
You were forced to pay
To keep me safe and happy
To push me so far away
But if I may be honest
And I know that with you I can
I would have paid any price
In any of part of any land
To keep you here and by my side
To have saved us from our crying
And my search of the far and wide
Just to bring you back to me
Right here right at my side
Where you were meant to be
Back to list Fall
Your words flow
Like silver streams
In spring
You give me life
That i must take
And live
My only fear
Is that I may
Fail you
My only hope
Is that you will
Forgive
Because I know
As hard as I
Will try
I shall stumble
Unable to stop
The fall
Back to list Another Day
Sun filters down through
The thin layers of clouds
And the thick sheets of glass
Hitting my face and warming
My cheeks, I greet the day by it.
Laying still, my eyes closed
Soaking up the long traveled rays
Waiting for the day to begin
And take me in its eternal grasp
To lead me places I will never dream
Finally I get up and dust the
Sleep from my still weary eyes
Opening them slowly to take
A glimpse of what the world has
To offer me on the brand new day
Back to list Walls
You're trying to tear down
the walls i took such care to build.
Taller than the tallest trees,
Stronger than the mighty ox,
They protect and shelter me.
For all the best intentions
I just can't help but wonder.
Is this the better way,
Forced to experience
All that will come my way?
Here i've lived forever
Ruling from afar.
Sitting upon my golden throne,
Removed from the reality life.
Never and yet always alone.
I'm helpless to do anything
As the blocks come tumbling down.
My eyes well up with tears,
As truth finally hits me,
Bringing with it all my fears.
Frantically i try and rebuild
The broken parapets.
Stone and mortar in my hand,
But no matter how fast i go
The damage i cannot mend.
So here i sit and wait
For reality to leave.
To give me even a small break
From the bombardment
Of my sanity it wants to take.
Back to list Sirens and City Streets
walking down that long forgotten street
mem’ries of my childhood
returning with every fall of my feet
from down by the fire house
the sirens they'd scream
drowning out the fans cheering for the team
as they played down
the street on fall friday nights
under the radience
of the great big bright lights
passing that stadium which
has long since been quiet
remembering the playoff
games where we'd nearly start riots.
walking down that long forgotten street
passing the people i
have never gotten the chance to meet
and staring at the old
familiar street signs
looking at cars not parked between the lines
remembering how
in the days long gone by
our dreams went so high they
nearly touched the sky
that was the time when we
thought the world was so sweet
and we’d live our days by the
sirens and on the city’s streets.
Back to list The Monster in the City
something is loose out in the city
and it lives on the breath of the night
it stalks the girls and likes the boys
and tries to keep out of the lights.
it is there and it knows where you live v but from it you will never hide
it will only leave when it has what it wants
and that is to find out you lied.
you will never be totally safe
in the dark city with it's bright lights
for you will always be tempted
and could fall from great heights
there is something alive in the dark
and it breathes in the scent of your lies
it looks like a wolf but wears sheeep's skin
you can only tell by the eyes.
be careful while out in the city
remember to stay in the lights
never give into the monster
and hang on with all of your might
Back to list
Ruined Dillusions
Raised to believe
There is good in everyone.
The further I delve
into the world, the less it's true.
Found out
Idealism gets you nowhere in this world.
I keep on
Forgetting I don't live where I'd like.
People are not
The way I believe they should be.
The more I give
The less i recieve.
Until all I'm
Left with are my ruined dillusions.
A pocket full
Of broken promises.
Serated bits
Of my lie-shattered life.
Taken, given
Stolen from an innocent.
Who is not
So innocent any longer.
Back to list Little Girl
I once knew an innocent little girl,
Who had a voice like springtime wind,
And sunshine rainbows in her hair.
For her life was a big game,
She was always thinking five steps ahead,
Anticipating what would happen next.
The simple joy she always felt,
At the most sincerely simple things
Used to make me want to scream and cry.
But that childish naïveté,
Almost frightening in its depth
Was replaced by horrid cynicism.
The day that happened I did weep,
That was the day the wonder ended
For that charming little girl.
Watching her grow-up in sunshine,
Then being dropped into dark oblivion,
The soul sucked out of everything.
She sits there still, maybe forevermore
Surrounded by starless night,
Living in the sunless day.
Back to list A warning
Little girl,
So sweet and innocent
Run away,
Before the world returns
(please) Stay the same,
As you are at this time
(but) Be aware,
Of the “one sacred truth”
They will try,
To steal your soul from you
To rob you,
Of the good you possess.
Little girl
Run away
Please stay the same
But be aware
They will try
To rob you
Little girl,
Precious are your mem’ries
Run away,
From the bad boogey man
(please) Stay the same,
With truth and innocence
(but) Be aware,
Of the “godly people”
They will try,
To feed you beautiful lies,
To rob you,
Of your scared sanity.
Little girl
You didn’t run
Or stay the same
And weren’t aware
When they did try
And finally robbed you.
Little girl,
I weep for you always
Run away,
Something you did not do
(please) Stay the same,
An impossible dream
(but) Be aware,
You couldn’t see through them
They will try,
And they were triumphant
To rob you,
And they left you naked.
Back to list And it all comes crashing down
fake conformity
lies of reality
hypocritical truth.
grasping my hand
infiltrating the band
destroying me.
a world of beauty
joy coming through me
ceased in an instant.
replaced by darkness
world looses it's sharpness
i feel so lost.
wading through insanity
wanting to scream profanity
holding it all in
sooner or later
you will hate her
the person i am
the shroud of hypocirsy
the lies of reality
what sits behind the walls
as they come tumbling down. Back to list Flower Child
I'm just a flower child
Yeah, a little flower girl
A flower in the springtime breeze
Drifting in the lunar air
Alight on my own suposition
I'm just a flower child in the world
Displaying my raceme
Adding a little color to the gray
That everybody seems to carry
Just a little flower child
Outnumbered and outweighed
But that doesn't matter to me
Oh no, it doesn't matter to me
If I can get just one to smile
Then everything I've done,
On yes, it is all worthwhile
For that's the flower child's mission
Bringing people the joy
That they are missing
Splashes of color to the gray
I take my job mighty seriously
Yes, someone needs to be
The pretty flower child
I'm glad that someone is me
Back to list By Your Bed
Summer nights so shortly endless
Drifting through both time and space
Running through the star flecked mess
Dressed in dark and mists of lace
Memories we’ve sown everywhere
As fireflies soaring overhead
Catch them in bottles if you dare
Keep them always by your bed
Back to list Taking Leave
I’m departing from this earthly plane
Leaving all my pain behind
Bidding farewell to mom and dad
Throwing all my cares aside
Good night,
good day,
good evening
and farewell.
You won’t be seeing me again.
Unless you journey through my hell.
No more pain,
no more hurt,
No bitter symphony.
I’m taking leave of this earthly plane.
Blocking my ears from the cacophony
Casting away the masks
Getting rid of all the lies
No more fake “how are you”s
No more long goodbyes.
I’m taking leave of this earthly plane.
Wish me a happy trip.
Back to list Flowers
Snowflakes in summer
Throwing fliers in the air
Hearts that bleed honey
The Sun here on Earth
Pulpits with preachers and
Congregations of Dutchmen
Lady’s slippers in the forest
Black eyes in the field
Sweet, pungent, beautiful
Small, dainty, life
Back to list Bad Karma
Déjà vu strikes again
You wonder if it will ever end
The hope, the pain,
And loneliness
Is this really as good as it gets?
You stick in my mouth
Like a bad taste
Mouthwash can’t even erase
And I wake up every morning
In my head
It says, this is the wrong side of the bed
Back to list A Sad Day
you died today
I wept.
no more mornings
in the sunlight
no more happy
times before bed
your multi-colored body
adorns the garbage can
my poor mermaid's
batteries are dead
unable to brush
my teeth another day
Back to list Grandma
She sits,
And you can map
The years in her face
She moves,
And you can see
The world she carried
She laughs,
And you can hear
The wild abandon of youth
She smiles,
And you can feel
The love she has given
She thinks,
Incompletely
Because of her sickness
She tries
And you can’t help
But almost cry
She cries
And you can’t even
Console her
She lives
In a world you
Can only glimpse
She was
Your world, and
Now is failing
Because
Of an evil disease
That you cannot cure
That rips
Away the present leaving
Tattered remnants of the past
Back to list A Wonderful Experiment
a wonderful experiment
toying with a person's mind
my wonderful experiment
feeding false expresssions and lines
someday maybe i'll learn something
what i should and shouldn't do
someday maybe i'll learn nothing
and continue playing with you
you cannot imagine my high
the rush of power there is
you cannot imagine the low
when in trying for it i miss
maybe i will appologize
used you then left you behind
i will never appologize
i'll just leave the rest of your mind
Back to list Two Loves
my beauty
i see you everyday
watching from afar
you infiltrate my
deepest dreams
my beauty
different from the first
causing confusion
you fullfill my
darkest desires
my beauties
together you are different
nothing at all alike
the two loves of
my two sex life
Back to list Twilight In the Northwoods Twilight in the Northwoods
Darkness falling on the lake
Only sounds to hit our ears
Is the peeping that the frogs make
From the perch upon the stern
I throw in another line
And settle down to wait
If nothing bites it will be fine
The cool breeze does blow
From shore to farthest shore
Sitting on the boat at night
Trading bits of local lore
Throw your head back
And stare up at the sky
Watch as one by one
The stars they seem to sigh
Pretty points of light
Against the pale warm black
With so many extra ones
That the city will always lack
The bugs that can get so thick
They nearly block the sky
While across the waters searching
Listen as the bats they fly
Still watching my fishing line
The others counting two or three
Not a thing interested in my worm
But that’s always fine by me
Hear the wise owl talk
To his friends and foes alike
Out for another lonely night
Catching the mice in mid-hike
The wolves raise their voices
In beautiful harmony
Their song so strangely haunting
We’ll always let them be
These memories forever
Etched into the back of my mind For a more prefect sight than this
You will never be able to find
That is twilight in the Northwoods
As we sit upon the lake
Listening to the music
The creatures of the night make
Back to list March Morning Whirly gigs wafting on the wind
Soaring seagulls spinning in the sky
Busy bumbling bees burrowing
In nacissitic niches of gnarled
Winter weeping willow whips
Entertaining my ears early
In the eternally enlightening
Moments of a March morning
As I sit siletnly searching for
Another annonymous answer
To life's little litany of
Incredible imaginary incidents
That leave the thousands of thinking
People perpetually perplexed
Over another ominous eternity
Back to list
Sinking
Long Lost Love
Fall
Another Day
Walls
Sirens and City Streets
Monster in the City
Ruined Dellusions
Little Girl
A Warning
It All Comes Crashing Down
Flower Child
By Your Bed
Taking Leave
Flowers
Bad Karma
A Sad Day
Grandma
A Wonderful Experiment
Two Loves
Twilight in the Northwoods
March Morning
They
In a bright sea of bluish flowers
Two young lovers hesitate to fall
Under bowl of deep blue sky
They dance without touching
In the lush green alpine fields
They frolic without a care
Between the good old oaks
They are the ones that are free
They are the ones that are free
The ones in which the future is held
They are the one unburdened by care
The ones that will save us
They are the ones who touch
By not touching a thing
They are the one who refused to fall
And will keep us pure
Back to list Sinking
I’ve thrown up the danger flag
And I’ve sent the SOS
We’re bailing out the water
But not making any progress
This ship is going down
And there’s nothing I can do
The ship is going down
Jump in the boat so I can save you
We didn’t hit an iceberg
And I didn’t pull the plug
There’s nothing that didn’t happen
It wasn’t the wood-eating bug
But this ship is going down
And there’s nothing I can do
The ship is going down
Jump in the boat so I can save you
Like the good captain
I will stay here until the end
And watch as the ship sinks
It’s not me they will commend
As this ship is going down
And there’s nothing I can do
The ship is going down
Jump in the boat so I can save you
I wish I would have heeded
The signs that were there before
But I didn’t want to deal with it
I couldn’t handle anymore
So now my ship goes down
And there’s something I could have done
The ship is going down
But I didn’t want to ruin your fun
Back to list Long Lost Love
I peer into your eyes
And imagine my surprise
When lo and behold
I glimpse the depths of your soul
And as your gaze I hold
I manage to see the
Answers unfold
There just for me to read
And tell me what happened
On that night and on that day
And to give me a look at the price
You were forced to pay
To keep me safe and happy
To push me so far away
But if I may be honest
And I know that with you I can
I would have paid any price
In any of part of any land
To keep you here and by my side
To have saved us from our crying
And my search of the far and wide
Just to bring you back to me
Right here right at my side
Where you were meant to be
Back to list Fall
Your words flow
Like silver streams
In spring
You give me life
That i must take
And live
My only fear
Is that I may
Fail you
My only hope
Is that you will
Forgive
Because I know
As hard as I
Will try
I shall stumble
Unable to stop
The fall
Back to list Another Day
Sun filters down through
The thin layers of clouds
And the thick sheets of glass
Hitting my face and warming
My cheeks, I greet the day by it.
Laying still, my eyes closed
Soaking up the long traveled rays
Waiting for the day to begin
And take me in its eternal grasp
To lead me places I will never dream
Finally I get up and dust the
Sleep from my still weary eyes
Opening them slowly to take
A glimpse of what the world has
To offer me on the brand new day
Back to list Walls
You're trying to tear down
the walls i took such care to build.
Taller than the tallest trees,
Stronger than the mighty ox,
They protect and shelter me.
For all the best intentions
I just can't help but wonder.
Is this the better way,
Forced to experience
All that will come my way?
Here i've lived forever
Ruling from afar.
Sitting upon my golden throne,
Removed from the reality life.
Never and yet always alone.
I'm helpless to do anything
As the blocks come tumbling down.
My eyes well up with tears,
As truth finally hits me,
Bringing with it all my fears.
Frantically i try and rebuild
The broken parapets.
Stone and mortar in my hand,
But no matter how fast i go
The damage i cannot mend.
So here i sit and wait
For reality to leave.
To give me even a small break
From the bombardment
Of my sanity it wants to take.
Back to list Sirens and City Streets
walking down that long forgotten street
mem’ries of my childhood
returning with every fall of my feet
from down by the fire house
the sirens they'd scream
drowning out the fans cheering for the team
as they played down
the street on fall friday nights
under the radience
of the great big bright lights
passing that stadium which
has long since been quiet
remembering the playoff
games where we'd nearly start riots.
walking down that long forgotten street
passing the people i
have never gotten the chance to meet
and staring at the old
familiar street signs
looking at cars not parked between the lines
remembering how
in the days long gone by
our dreams went so high they
nearly touched the sky
that was the time when we
thought the world was so sweet
and we’d live our days by the
sirens and on the city’s streets.
Back to list The Monster in the City
something is loose out in the city
and it lives on the breath of the night
it stalks the girls and likes the boys
and tries to keep out of the lights.
it is there and it knows where you live v but from it you will never hide
it will only leave when it has what it wants
and that is to find out you lied.
you will never be totally safe
in the dark city with it's bright lights
for you will always be tempted
and could fall from great heights
there is something alive in the dark
and it breathes in the scent of your lies
it looks like a wolf but wears sheeep's skin
you can only tell by the eyes.
be careful while out in the city
remember to stay in the lights
never give into the monster
and hang on with all of your might
Back to list
Ruined Dillusions
Raised to believe
There is good in everyone.
The further I delve
into the world, the less it's true.
Found out
Idealism gets you nowhere in this world.
I keep on
Forgetting I don't live where I'd like.
People are not
The way I believe they should be.
The more I give
The less i recieve.
Until all I'm
Left with are my ruined dillusions.
A pocket full
Of broken promises.
Serated bits
Of my lie-shattered life.
Taken, given
Stolen from an innocent.
Who is not
So innocent any longer.
Back to list Little Girl
I once knew an innocent little girl,
Who had a voice like springtime wind,
And sunshine rainbows in her hair.
For her life was a big game,
She was always thinking five steps ahead,
Anticipating what would happen next.
The simple joy she always felt,
At the most sincerely simple things
Used to make me want to scream and cry.
But that childish naïveté,
Almost frightening in its depth
Was replaced by horrid cynicism.
The day that happened I did weep,
That was the day the wonder ended
For that charming little girl.
Watching her grow-up in sunshine,
Then being dropped into dark oblivion,
The soul sucked out of everything.
She sits there still, maybe forevermore
Surrounded by starless night,
Living in the sunless day.
Back to list A warning
Little girl,
So sweet and innocent
Run away,
Before the world returns
(please) Stay the same,
As you are at this time
(but) Be aware,
Of the “one sacred truth”
They will try,
To steal your soul from you
To rob you,
Of the good you possess.
Little girl
Run away
Please stay the same
But be aware
They will try
To rob you
Little girl,
Precious are your mem’ries
Run away,
From the bad boogey man
(please) Stay the same,
With truth and innocence
(but) Be aware,
Of the “godly people”
They will try,
To feed you beautiful lies,
To rob you,
Of your scared sanity.
Little girl
You didn’t run
Or stay the same
And weren’t aware
When they did try
And finally robbed you.
Little girl,
I weep for you always
Run away,
Something you did not do
(please) Stay the same,
An impossible dream
(but) Be aware,
You couldn’t see through them
They will try,
And they were triumphant
To rob you,
And they left you naked.
Back to list And it all comes crashing down
fake conformity
lies of reality
hypocritical truth.
grasping my hand
infiltrating the band
destroying me.
a world of beauty
joy coming through me
ceased in an instant.
replaced by darkness
world looses it's sharpness
i feel so lost.
wading through insanity
wanting to scream profanity
holding it all in
sooner or later
you will hate her
the person i am
the shroud of hypocirsy
the lies of reality
what sits behind the walls
as they come tumbling down. Back to list Flower Child
I'm just a flower child
Yeah, a little flower girl
A flower in the springtime breeze
Drifting in the lunar air
Alight on my own suposition
I'm just a flower child in the world
Displaying my raceme
Adding a little color to the gray
That everybody seems to carry
Just a little flower child
Outnumbered and outweighed
But that doesn't matter to me
Oh no, it doesn't matter to me
If I can get just one to smile
Then everything I've done,
On yes, it is all worthwhile
For that's the flower child's mission
Bringing people the joy
That they are missing
Splashes of color to the gray
I take my job mighty seriously
Yes, someone needs to be
The pretty flower child
I'm glad that someone is me
Back to list By Your Bed
Summer nights so shortly endless
Drifting through both time and space
Running through the star flecked mess
Dressed in dark and mists of lace
Memories we’ve sown everywhere
As fireflies soaring overhead
Catch them in bottles if you dare
Keep them always by your bed
Back to list Taking Leave
I’m departing from this earthly plane
Leaving all my pain behind
Bidding farewell to mom and dad
Throwing all my cares aside
Good night,
good day,
good evening
and farewell.
You won’t be seeing me again.
Unless you journey through my hell.
No more pain,
no more hurt,
No bitter symphony.
I’m taking leave of this earthly plane.
Blocking my ears from the cacophony
Casting away the masks
Getting rid of all the lies
No more fake “how are you”s
No more long goodbyes.
I’m taking leave of this earthly plane.
Wish me a happy trip.
Back to list Flowers
Snowflakes in summer
Throwing fliers in the air
Hearts that bleed honey
The Sun here on Earth
Pulpits with preachers and
Congregations of Dutchmen
Lady’s slippers in the forest
Black eyes in the field
Sweet, pungent, beautiful
Small, dainty, life
Back to list Bad Karma
Déjà vu strikes again
You wonder if it will ever end
The hope, the pain,
And loneliness
Is this really as good as it gets?
You stick in my mouth
Like a bad taste
Mouthwash can’t even erase
And I wake up every morning
In my head
It says, this is the wrong side of the bed
Back to list A Sad Day
you died today
I wept.
no more mornings
in the sunlight
no more happy
times before bed
your multi-colored body
adorns the garbage can
my poor mermaid's
batteries are dead
unable to brush
my teeth another day
Back to list Grandma
She sits,
And you can map
The years in her face
She moves,
And you can see
The world she carried
She laughs,
And you can hear
The wild abandon of youth
She smiles,
And you can feel
The love she has given
She thinks,
Incompletely
Because of her sickness
She tries
And you can’t help
But almost cry
She cries
And you can’t even
Console her
She lives
In a world you
Can only glimpse
She was
Your world, and
Now is failing
Because
Of an evil disease
That you cannot cure
That rips
Away the present leaving
Tattered remnants of the past
Back to list A Wonderful Experiment
a wonderful experiment
toying with a person's mind
my wonderful experiment
feeding false expresssions and lines
someday maybe i'll learn something
what i should and shouldn't do
someday maybe i'll learn nothing
and continue playing with you
you cannot imagine my high
the rush of power there is
you cannot imagine the low
when in trying for it i miss
maybe i will appologize
used you then left you behind
i will never appologize
i'll just leave the rest of your mind
Back to list Two Loves
my beauty
i see you everyday
watching from afar
you infiltrate my
deepest dreams
my beauty
different from the first
causing confusion
you fullfill my
darkest desires
my beauties
together you are different
nothing at all alike
the two loves of
my two sex life
Back to list Twilight In the Northwoods Twilight in the Northwoods
Darkness falling on the lake
Only sounds to hit our ears
Is the peeping that the frogs make
From the perch upon the stern
I throw in another line
And settle down to wait
If nothing bites it will be fine
The cool breeze does blow
From shore to farthest shore
Sitting on the boat at night
Trading bits of local lore
Throw your head back
And stare up at the sky
Watch as one by one
The stars they seem to sigh
Pretty points of light
Against the pale warm black
With so many extra ones
That the city will always lack
The bugs that can get so thick
They nearly block the sky
While across the waters searching
Listen as the bats they fly
Still watching my fishing line
The others counting two or three
Not a thing interested in my worm
But that’s always fine by me
Hear the wise owl talk
To his friends and foes alike
Out for another lonely night
Catching the mice in mid-hike
The wolves raise their voices
In beautiful harmony
Their song so strangely haunting
We’ll always let them be
These memories forever
Etched into the back of my mind For a more prefect sight than this
You will never be able to find
That is twilight in the Northwoods
As we sit upon the lake
Listening to the music
The creatures of the night make
Back to list March Morning Whirly gigs wafting on the wind
Soaring seagulls spinning in the sky
Busy bumbling bees burrowing
In nacissitic niches of gnarled
Winter weeping willow whips
Entertaining my ears early
In the eternally enlightening
Moments of a March morning
As I sit siletnly searching for
Another annonymous answer
To life's little litany of
Incredible imaginary incidents
That leave the thousands of thinking
People perpetually perplexed
Over another ominous eternity
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